i will
hold it in
you will
laugh out loud
it will
be like yesterday
or any other day
that will
never come back around
and so i smile
just for now
fuck time
fuck the cause
all its promises
of previously arranged
end of life commitments
just for now
but instead
i will sink down
with my makeshift frown
burrowing
into the throws
and furrow
where my
conscious riddles
keep it close
for what she knows
push her away
if feelings show
and never regret
anything that hasn’t happened yet